I know the world preaches that you need to blow your own horn, preach and tell all how good you are at things. But isn't that being proud as well? I have listened as my friends talk about all the good things they are doing for the Lord, about how people said they were blessed or happy with their work and it always makes me wonder, is the Lord happy with such work? Whatever happened to working for the Lord and not expecting praise? Why do people like praising themselves? Surely if you are working for the Lord then the Lord should be the one praising you, not you praising yourself....
I am just tired of people running around doing things so that they can be praised and get recognition, whatever happened to self dying so that Christ can live in us? Whatever happened to lifting up Christ and letting him do the work of drawing saints?
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Today.......
Today I am feeling lost! I did not have a bad dream, I haven't been sleeping well because of my low iron levels, but I don't think that is the reason I am feeling low.
I can't place my finger on it or on the reason why, but I am just feeling sad and very low.
One of my contacts broke last night and I don't have spares on me :-( as I am at my parents place in Phakalane and getting them in Gabs isn't the simplest of tasks. Plus it is a weekend and the optician opens on Monday! I have lots of places to go and tonnes to do before Tuesday as that is the day we are expected to go home to Jackalas. Just feeling overwhelmed and not in control and that makes me want to curl up and hide from everything and everyone.
:-( I cant see without my contacts, how am I going to get around :-(?
I think I should take deep breaths in and out and get out of bed!!!!!
I can't place my finger on it or on the reason why, but I am just feeling sad and very low.
One of my contacts broke last night and I don't have spares on me :-( as I am at my parents place in Phakalane and getting them in Gabs isn't the simplest of tasks. Plus it is a weekend and the optician opens on Monday! I have lots of places to go and tonnes to do before Tuesday as that is the day we are expected to go home to Jackalas. Just feeling overwhelmed and not in control and that makes me want to curl up and hide from everything and everyone.
:-( I cant see without my contacts, how am I going to get around :-(?
I think I should take deep breaths in and out and get out of bed!!!!!
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Day of rest: Sabbath
The Sabbath is a day of rest, created for us to be able to rest and unwind after a hectic week. It is more that just a day to get together with friends and talk about stuff. Its for us as individuals to rest in the Lord, to sit back, go to the Lord's feet and just listen to him. To lay all our burdens down and just forget about all the stressors out there. More often than not however, we use the Sabbath as a day to show how 'holy' we are, it becomes a day that we use to show each other how much more we love the Lord by coming early and chastising those that come late, I am not saying people should come late, but we are all different and have been dealt different cards in life. You may not have problems but some people are struggling to get by and to get through. Church should be a place of rest and refuge, not a war room. The Sabbath should be a day of rest, on this day, I would like to hear sweet words of how Christ loves me and died for me. On this day I want to hear that regardless of what I am going through, Christ will cover me and come through for me. On this day, I want to be reminded that the battle is not mine but the Lords.
I might not be able to go to church every Sabbath, I do not expect to be stoned for it. Sabbath rest to me does not mean going to church every Sabbath. The God I serve meets me at my point of need, not only in church.
I do go to church and I love and enjoy worshipping with the other saints :-)
I might not be able to go to church every Sabbath, I do not expect to be stoned for it. Sabbath rest to me does not mean going to church every Sabbath. The God I serve meets me at my point of need, not only in church.
I do go to church and I love and enjoy worshipping with the other saints :-)
Death: My cousin passes away
Death is never an easy thing to deal with. We watch movies everyday of people dying, we go to funerals every week, but when someone dies it hurts ever so much. I guess that has to do with the fact that every individual is unique and that when someone dies, its not so much about death but about the loss of a loved one. I believe that when Christ comes again we shall see our loved ones who have rested in the Lord again. But the thought that we continue on the journey without them is still painful. The memories shared, the places they used to occupy, the things we did and enjoyed together.... Death leaves a void in our lives.
We have hope in the Lord, for he says that All things work together for good to those who love the lord, to those who are called according to his purpose. Yes, Kabo Tuelo Gobela is no more but we know that the Lord who has the whole world has a plan for each and every one of us. Kabo had Muscular Dystrophy and we had been praying for a miracle for so long. We were still praying for a miracle when he passed away, God always answers prayers and I believe even in Kabo's death he has answered our prayers.
Still cannot believe that he is gone though, seems like yesterday when I saw him and talked to him.
We have hope in the Lord, for he says that All things work together for good to those who love the lord, to those who are called according to his purpose. Yes, Kabo Tuelo Gobela is no more but we know that the Lord who has the whole world has a plan for each and every one of us. Kabo had Muscular Dystrophy and we had been praying for a miracle for so long. We were still praying for a miracle when he passed away, God always answers prayers and I believe even in Kabo's death he has answered our prayers.
Still cannot believe that he is gone though, seems like yesterday when I saw him and talked to him.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Goodbye Facebook
After wanting to leave Facebook for so long, I have finally deactivated my account. I hope I can stay off it.
Facebook is a social place and in as much as it brings friends together and let's them know what the other is up to, it has depressed me more than it has given any joy.
It has become a competing place, to show up how successful we are, to brag (that's the word)! To brag about our successes, brag about our knowledge of the bible, brag about our families.
It works for other people, but for me it has been a complete let down. I cannot handle the 'friend ratrace', I cannot handle being ignored by friends, I cannot handle being left out, I cannot handle feeling like a failure.
It was nice while it lasted, but I am ready for that long overdue facebook fast.
Karabo
Facebook is a social place and in as much as it brings friends together and let's them know what the other is up to, it has depressed me more than it has given any joy.
It has become a competing place, to show up how successful we are, to brag (that's the word)! To brag about our successes, brag about our knowledge of the bible, brag about our families.
It works for other people, but for me it has been a complete let down. I cannot handle the 'friend ratrace', I cannot handle being ignored by friends, I cannot handle being left out, I cannot handle feeling like a failure.
It was nice while it lasted, but I am ready for that long overdue facebook fast.
Karabo
Funny thing
I love reading, so much so that I can get lost in a book. But I am not reading much, not for lack of reading material, but I lack the motivation and inspiration. There are a few writers who have captivated my mind and when they don't have new reading material I am bored stiff.
The others try but they just don't speak to me as much. My favourite writers of all time are Francine Rivers and Judith Bronte. I love the old classics as well but these two ladies write such inspiring stories that draw me to my knees, that make me pause to talk to God. Their stories are fictional but they speak volumes.
I also want to write like Francine and Judith, at the moment I am nowhere near producing what they are doing so I am not even going to try. I am going to stick to writing devotionals because I don't think I have an imagination like theirs. I will write them on the blog daily. I don't have any followers yet, but hopefully
I will pick them up as time goes.
The other person who has tried to write and has succeeded is the lady who wrote Harry Porter, I forget her name. The detail in her stories is remarkable, she puts you right on the scene and does it in such a way that all her readers have a single view of the story. When it comes out in movie theaters, you can remember things from the book and everything will be exactly how you read it.
I read some Harry Porter books and I was reminded of Francine Rivers. They have an almost similar style of writing. The irony of it all, they are on opposite sides. One writes Christian fiction and the other...well, from her books writes non Christian books. Talent wasted on Harry Porter!
Its interesting how we have become so desensitized into thinking that evil is cool and more fun as compared to good. Most Christian songs don't even have the word Jesus or God in them. They appeal to our highly charged emotions and that is just how the world likes them. Christians would rather buy non Christian material than buy Christian material to feed our minds.
And we wonder and marvel at the atrocities happening all over the world!
I am also guilty of that, I am saddened to admit I like watching programmes like Merlin which encourage witchcraft and idolatry, Ben 10 which shows a universe dependent on a kid with a watch that gives him the ability to turn into a dozen powerful aliens and rescue the world! Where is Christ in the programmes we watch on tv? We are such a science oriented generation that we have pushed Christ out of our lives.
The few Christian programmes out there are so commercialised that they are more about entertaining than lifting Christ just so that they can have viewers. Those that are not are deemed boring and no one watches them. What have we become? We need the Lord now more than ever.
I have long wanted to blog, to lift up Christ, to praise, worship Him using the talents he has given me and I have only just began
Karabo
The others try but they just don't speak to me as much. My favourite writers of all time are Francine Rivers and Judith Bronte. I love the old classics as well but these two ladies write such inspiring stories that draw me to my knees, that make me pause to talk to God. Their stories are fictional but they speak volumes.
I also want to write like Francine and Judith, at the moment I am nowhere near producing what they are doing so I am not even going to try. I am going to stick to writing devotionals because I don't think I have an imagination like theirs. I will write them on the blog daily. I don't have any followers yet, but hopefully
I will pick them up as time goes.
The other person who has tried to write and has succeeded is the lady who wrote Harry Porter, I forget her name. The detail in her stories is remarkable, she puts you right on the scene and does it in such a way that all her readers have a single view of the story. When it comes out in movie theaters, you can remember things from the book and everything will be exactly how you read it.
I read some Harry Porter books and I was reminded of Francine Rivers. They have an almost similar style of writing. The irony of it all, they are on opposite sides. One writes Christian fiction and the other...well, from her books writes non Christian books. Talent wasted on Harry Porter!
Its interesting how we have become so desensitized into thinking that evil is cool and more fun as compared to good. Most Christian songs don't even have the word Jesus or God in them. They appeal to our highly charged emotions and that is just how the world likes them. Christians would rather buy non Christian material than buy Christian material to feed our minds.
And we wonder and marvel at the atrocities happening all over the world!
I am also guilty of that, I am saddened to admit I like watching programmes like Merlin which encourage witchcraft and idolatry, Ben 10 which shows a universe dependent on a kid with a watch that gives him the ability to turn into a dozen powerful aliens and rescue the world! Where is Christ in the programmes we watch on tv? We are such a science oriented generation that we have pushed Christ out of our lives.
The few Christian programmes out there are so commercialised that they are more about entertaining than lifting Christ just so that they can have viewers. Those that are not are deemed boring and no one watches them. What have we become? We need the Lord now more than ever.
I have long wanted to blog, to lift up Christ, to praise, worship Him using the talents he has given me and I have only just began
Karabo
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Wow! The last update I did was in August! Got no excuse, and so much happened between now and then.
I am not sure how to do this. Do I update as from August, or do I just continue from now?
So much has happened, I'll do monthly summaries and catch up.
SEPTEMBER:
A once best friend of mine got married, but I missed the wedding. Didn't get an invite or directions,
But I was still expected to drive 800km or so to Zimbabwe from Botswana to an unknown location. Much
As I don't want to say it, my friend was being selfish.
OCTOBER:
Don't remember much happening in this month
NOVEMBER:
I resigned from work & became the happiest girl ever. That place was choking me. I wasn't growing
Anymore. Plus, now I could concentrate on my wedding day which was now only a couple of days away.
Planning a wedding is hectic! A lot of people took advantage of me and gave me halfbaked service
And some just went all out to sabortage my wedding. :-) but God is good, for He had my back and
Gave me even more people to help me so I can't complain.
DECEMBER:
Got married on the 5th in Jackalas no1 village in Botswana and on the 12th in Gweru, Zimbabwe we had
The 2ceremonies went very well and we had friends from all over attending. Most didn't make it,
But we are grateful and happy about those that attended. It was a blessed and special day.
We left for our honeymoon on the 13th, we were in Cape Town on the 1st of January 2011.
The honeymoon deserves its own posts :-)
I am not sure how to do this. Do I update as from August, or do I just continue from now?
So much has happened, I'll do monthly summaries and catch up.
SEPTEMBER:
A once best friend of mine got married, but I missed the wedding. Didn't get an invite or directions,
But I was still expected to drive 800km or so to Zimbabwe from Botswana to an unknown location. Much
As I don't want to say it, my friend was being selfish.
OCTOBER:
Don't remember much happening in this month
NOVEMBER:
I resigned from work & became the happiest girl ever. That place was choking me. I wasn't growing
Anymore. Plus, now I could concentrate on my wedding day which was now only a couple of days away.
Planning a wedding is hectic! A lot of people took advantage of me and gave me halfbaked service
And some just went all out to sabortage my wedding. :-) but God is good, for He had my back and
Gave me even more people to help me so I can't complain.
DECEMBER:
Got married on the 5th in Jackalas no1 village in Botswana and on the 12th in Gweru, Zimbabwe we had
The 2ceremonies went very well and we had friends from all over attending. Most didn't make it,
But we are grateful and happy about those that attended. It was a blessed and special day.
We left for our honeymoon on the 13th, we were in Cape Town on the 1st of January 2011.
The honeymoon deserves its own posts :-)
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