Me and my Rooibos

I used to love rooibos when I was a little girl. I think it was the fact that tea was reserved for adults and on the ocassions we would be offered it felt like such a treat. We felt honoured that we were drinking tea.


I loved mine especially with a lot of milk, it had that milky smell and taste and I thought it was just lovely. I could never turn down tea.


Now, I am not such a big fan. Don't like too much sugar in my tea and don't want it to have any milk.


Come to think of it, I think I loved tea because my cousins loved it. Not really because I loved it for myself. The group loved it.


A lot of things are like that in life, you go through a stage of liking certain movies, songs, clothes, hair and even colours. Only to realise later in life that those likes were dictated by society, be it magazines, church, family or friends.


Unfortunately as well, some people never realise that the things they think they like, they things they identify with are not really their own choices, they have been chosen for them by someone else.


If people trully chose their own paths, trust me, we would be seeing a whole lot more variety in the world than we are seeing currently.

Friendly strangers

:-) Seriously, I need help. I have one follower on my blog and the last time they were on my blog was like a year or 2 ago! I am that boring huh? Could dedicate Akon's "Lonely" to myself!

Well, yesterday I went out for my monthly shopping and after dropping my husband off I decided to get a quick breakfast. I am walking down the aisle and a gentleman greets me in my native language! Imagine my shock! I am thousands of miles away in a strange land where people speak something else and I am greeted in my language!

Well, if you know me, then you know I didnt greet him. I looked straight on to where I was going. Truth be told, I thought I missed home so much that I heard my native tongue! I happened to stand behind him in the queue to pay and he asked me if something was wrong, still in my native language. I had to laugh as I explained that I thought I was hallucinating! We talked and laughed for a bit as we waited to pay after which I went my own way.

It lit my day, that was just a God sent!!! To be able to speak my language and for a second forget that I am far away from the land of my parents. That reminds me, I need to go write a recipe for my mother, before she calls to remind me again!

Blogging vs journal

I used to think blogging was easy, I mean I have always had a way with words, I was never a shy child. Now that I don’t have a speaking platform I figured I would start blogging to share my thoughts and I assumed it would come easy.
You see, the thinking does come easy, but because I need to sit down and write it all down, it becomes tricky as in my mind I need to ‘perfect it’. It is never perfect and half the time I wonder if I am blogging to anyone at all or just using a blog as a journal.

Yes, I have always been a ‘talker’, but making friends has always been a challenge for me and it continues to be a challenge online. I am afraid of rejection and I am afraid of being left out so I would rather be on my own than try make friends and not be accepted. Safe way of playing but I am not sure if it’s the best thing for what I want to do with my life. I have been in Cape Town for 10 months now and I have not made any new friends.
I am afraid of opening myself to new people, so scared that I dare not venture outside the house. On days that I do go outside, I have to wind myself up for at least a day before I go outside.

I don’t want a lot of friends really, just that one friend who will invite you for coffee just to chat and laugh, that one friend who I can go book shopping with, who I can share thoughts with. Now I live for the hour long call from my friend back in Gaborone who calls to chat about business, life, love, everything really. I know there are people out there who don’t even have that one friend so I am eternally grateful for my friend Refilwe.

Bored at home

This is turning out to be like my book journal, 1 entry a month if I am lucky. I dont know why, but of late I am feeling extremely low and discouraged. I guess I never thought I would get such moments when I quit my job to come here. I am not complaining and I am not even missing my old job. Just want to do a whole lot more with my time. I just want to do more stuff. A part time job would be cool but being in a foreign country, I cant really do that without a permit and stuff. Having a friend to do stuff with would be cool, not just on weekends, but even during the week. :-) Maybe I should just have a baby and concentrate on raising the baby?
Was just thinking to myself that I love quilting and scrapbooking, but I dont know where or how to start!!

Back online

Went home for my sister's wedding, getting back to the flow of things has been a bit challenging. For starters I was extremely sick when I got back and could not do a single thing. Then the motivation just sort of was not there.
Try as I could, nothing could bring me to open my laptop. I tried once, but ended up doing nothing important. One of those where you get a mind block and just sort of play online. Total waste of time, I downloaded a couple of interesting pdf books which I will get to reading eventually. Being a stay at home wife is hectic not as easy as I thought it would be but I am loving it. :-) Need a bit more structure to my days though.

I am back now and will be regular once again

Encouragement Blog

So far so good I think. I don't have a lot of people yet, got around 20 so far. People are so busy that I am not sure how many people will actually keep reading my devotions, but my prayer is that more and more people will find my blog and keep reading it. I have only received feedback and responses from 3 people, but I will keep going. If my blog is meant to reach only those 3 people then it will go on. Christ left the 99 sheep in the fold and went to look for the one. If the 99 are safe, then the blog will be for that 1. I know I had expected a lot of good feedback from family and friends and haven't really received any on that front, but I am going to try not to be disappointed and try to work for the Lord and not for family and friends' nods of approval.

Its Friday today, preparation day. So after this I am going to get ready for the Sabbath :-). Welcome, Welcome ever welcome blessed Sabbath day!!!

Finally

:-) yep!!! I have finally started the encouragement blog. It feels good. I have been planning (mentally) to get started on the blog and I have finally started and even invited a couple of people. No turning back now :-). I am going to start getting material for the other blogs that I want to push out. Hope all of them are successful :-).

Feels very good. Maybe I should start one on all the dishes I try out that come out well.