A friend asked me: 'Would you rather have a bigger cheque, more benefits or be married to Farai'? And without thinking I said, married to Farai of course!!
I must admit, there are days when i get so ... whats the word? Afraid!! That's the word!!! Why I don't know. Afraid of the future, afraid of its uncertainty! God says he has not given us a spirit of fear.... He says perfect love casts out all fear :-)
When Farai asked me to marry him, I wasnt afraid of the future (in fact i was so glad i was going to quit my boring job)! But then my dad spoke against my quitting my job...i have always looked up to my dad and valued his advise (even where i could see it was wrong).
:-( it feels like i have to choose between my dad and my husband, do i have to? In this instance though, my husband wins. Yes, I have days when I can hear my dad's voice speaking out against my quitting. :-) but i can hear another friend saying 'Surely your dad hasnt seen the way Farai looks at you, Farai loves you and that will be more than enough'.
And another friend said the most profound statement, "God is listening!!"
I have been blessed with a great husband who reminded me that, "We have nothing to fear for the future least we forget how the Lord has led us in the past........we need to trust him......we also need to be still".
And God himself is telling me that if he provided for the widow in the old testament, he will do much more for me! :-) I am blessed!!
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