There is a song, I dont quite remember how it goes but the whole message is around what do you do after you have fallen, after your heart has been broken and you are so sad, where do you go when you dont know where to go, when you dont know what to do with yourself!
I guess the questions above are not why I am blogging today. The response says you just stand, in His presence, you just stand! You dont have to say anything, dont have to do anything, you just stand!
:-( it doesnt make sense, am feeling so low, weepy even, but I dont know why. :-( and the devil is capitalising on that, reminding me of all the things that have ever hurt me in life :-(. How do you bury the hurt? No, not bury, I have buried it and it keeps resurfacing. I want it gone! Never to return! Life at times is painful, you love so much, you do so much for those you love and they do so little for you or nothing :-(
Is this the unconditional love that God wants us to have? To love so much and get nothing back and expect nothing? I guess I am far from it cos I want to be loved back, in the same manner that I love. :-( that's selfish I know!
I wish I could say it doesn't matter. Lord Jesus, take my hurts away, the bad memories, replace them with happy thoughts, with a happy present as the past we cant undo!
Lord, sometimes the gifts and talents you give us also hurt us. I dont know how to explain this but you understand. For once Lord, I want to be one of those people who are receiving from family and friends. Not to always be the one people expect gifts from. I am not complaining about the gifts I have given out. But just once Lord, let people do something nice for me. :-( am I asking for too much? Without me asking or complaining to them, I want to be remembered and to receive gifts of love. Maybe I am asking too much Lord. Help me not to expect too much from my family and friends Lord Jesus, in the same manner as I have been committing everything to you and you have been helping me Lord, let us continue. Forgive my selfish thoughts
Thank you, for I feel a lot better.
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