After wanting to leave Facebook for so long, I have finally deactivated my account. I hope I can stay off it.
Facebook is a social place and in as much as it brings friends together and let's them know what the other is up to, it has depressed me more than it has given any joy.
It has become a competing place, to show up how successful we are, to brag (that's the word)! To brag about our successes, brag about our knowledge of the bible, brag about our families.
It works for other people, but for me it has been a complete let down. I cannot handle the 'friend ratrace', I cannot handle being ignored by friends, I cannot handle being left out, I cannot handle feeling like a failure.
It was nice while it lasted, but I am ready for that long overdue facebook fast.
Karabo
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Funny thing
I love reading, so much so that I can get lost in a book. But I am not reading much, not for lack of reading material, but I lack the motivation and inspiration. There are a few writers who have captivated my mind and when they don't have new reading material I am bored stiff.
The others try but they just don't speak to me as much. My favourite writers of all time are Francine Rivers and Judith Bronte. I love the old classics as well but these two ladies write such inspiring stories that draw me to my knees, that make me pause to talk to God. Their stories are fictional but they speak volumes.
I also want to write like Francine and Judith, at the moment I am nowhere near producing what they are doing so I am not even going to try. I am going to stick to writing devotionals because I don't think I have an imagination like theirs. I will write them on the blog daily. I don't have any followers yet, but hopefully
I will pick them up as time goes.
The other person who has tried to write and has succeeded is the lady who wrote Harry Porter, I forget her name. The detail in her stories is remarkable, she puts you right on the scene and does it in such a way that all her readers have a single view of the story. When it comes out in movie theaters, you can remember things from the book and everything will be exactly how you read it.
I read some Harry Porter books and I was reminded of Francine Rivers. They have an almost similar style of writing. The irony of it all, they are on opposite sides. One writes Christian fiction and the other...well, from her books writes non Christian books. Talent wasted on Harry Porter!
Its interesting how we have become so desensitized into thinking that evil is cool and more fun as compared to good. Most Christian songs don't even have the word Jesus or God in them. They appeal to our highly charged emotions and that is just how the world likes them. Christians would rather buy non Christian material than buy Christian material to feed our minds.
And we wonder and marvel at the atrocities happening all over the world!
I am also guilty of that, I am saddened to admit I like watching programmes like Merlin which encourage witchcraft and idolatry, Ben 10 which shows a universe dependent on a kid with a watch that gives him the ability to turn into a dozen powerful aliens and rescue the world! Where is Christ in the programmes we watch on tv? We are such a science oriented generation that we have pushed Christ out of our lives.
The few Christian programmes out there are so commercialised that they are more about entertaining than lifting Christ just so that they can have viewers. Those that are not are deemed boring and no one watches them. What have we become? We need the Lord now more than ever.
I have long wanted to blog, to lift up Christ, to praise, worship Him using the talents he has given me and I have only just began
Karabo
The others try but they just don't speak to me as much. My favourite writers of all time are Francine Rivers and Judith Bronte. I love the old classics as well but these two ladies write such inspiring stories that draw me to my knees, that make me pause to talk to God. Their stories are fictional but they speak volumes.
I also want to write like Francine and Judith, at the moment I am nowhere near producing what they are doing so I am not even going to try. I am going to stick to writing devotionals because I don't think I have an imagination like theirs. I will write them on the blog daily. I don't have any followers yet, but hopefully
I will pick them up as time goes.
The other person who has tried to write and has succeeded is the lady who wrote Harry Porter, I forget her name. The detail in her stories is remarkable, she puts you right on the scene and does it in such a way that all her readers have a single view of the story. When it comes out in movie theaters, you can remember things from the book and everything will be exactly how you read it.
I read some Harry Porter books and I was reminded of Francine Rivers. They have an almost similar style of writing. The irony of it all, they are on opposite sides. One writes Christian fiction and the other...well, from her books writes non Christian books. Talent wasted on Harry Porter!
Its interesting how we have become so desensitized into thinking that evil is cool and more fun as compared to good. Most Christian songs don't even have the word Jesus or God in them. They appeal to our highly charged emotions and that is just how the world likes them. Christians would rather buy non Christian material than buy Christian material to feed our minds.
And we wonder and marvel at the atrocities happening all over the world!
I am also guilty of that, I am saddened to admit I like watching programmes like Merlin which encourage witchcraft and idolatry, Ben 10 which shows a universe dependent on a kid with a watch that gives him the ability to turn into a dozen powerful aliens and rescue the world! Where is Christ in the programmes we watch on tv? We are such a science oriented generation that we have pushed Christ out of our lives.
The few Christian programmes out there are so commercialised that they are more about entertaining than lifting Christ just so that they can have viewers. Those that are not are deemed boring and no one watches them. What have we become? We need the Lord now more than ever.
I have long wanted to blog, to lift up Christ, to praise, worship Him using the talents he has given me and I have only just began
Karabo
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Wow! The last update I did was in August! Got no excuse, and so much happened between now and then.
I am not sure how to do this. Do I update as from August, or do I just continue from now?
So much has happened, I'll do monthly summaries and catch up.
SEPTEMBER:
A once best friend of mine got married, but I missed the wedding. Didn't get an invite or directions,
But I was still expected to drive 800km or so to Zimbabwe from Botswana to an unknown location. Much
As I don't want to say it, my friend was being selfish.
OCTOBER:
Don't remember much happening in this month
NOVEMBER:
I resigned from work & became the happiest girl ever. That place was choking me. I wasn't growing
Anymore. Plus, now I could concentrate on my wedding day which was now only a couple of days away.
Planning a wedding is hectic! A lot of people took advantage of me and gave me halfbaked service
And some just went all out to sabortage my wedding. :-) but God is good, for He had my back and
Gave me even more people to help me so I can't complain.
DECEMBER:
Got married on the 5th in Jackalas no1 village in Botswana and on the 12th in Gweru, Zimbabwe we had
The 2ceremonies went very well and we had friends from all over attending. Most didn't make it,
But we are grateful and happy about those that attended. It was a blessed and special day.
We left for our honeymoon on the 13th, we were in Cape Town on the 1st of January 2011.
The honeymoon deserves its own posts :-)
I am not sure how to do this. Do I update as from August, or do I just continue from now?
So much has happened, I'll do monthly summaries and catch up.
SEPTEMBER:
A once best friend of mine got married, but I missed the wedding. Didn't get an invite or directions,
But I was still expected to drive 800km or so to Zimbabwe from Botswana to an unknown location. Much
As I don't want to say it, my friend was being selfish.
OCTOBER:
Don't remember much happening in this month
NOVEMBER:
I resigned from work & became the happiest girl ever. That place was choking me. I wasn't growing
Anymore. Plus, now I could concentrate on my wedding day which was now only a couple of days away.
Planning a wedding is hectic! A lot of people took advantage of me and gave me halfbaked service
And some just went all out to sabortage my wedding. :-) but God is good, for He had my back and
Gave me even more people to help me so I can't complain.
DECEMBER:
Got married on the 5th in Jackalas no1 village in Botswana and on the 12th in Gweru, Zimbabwe we had
The 2ceremonies went very well and we had friends from all over attending. Most didn't make it,
But we are grateful and happy about those that attended. It was a blessed and special day.
We left for our honeymoon on the 13th, we were in Cape Town on the 1st of January 2011.
The honeymoon deserves its own posts :-)
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Memories
There is a song that goes: 'Are you making any memories as you go along the way.....'
Just this week I was reminded of old memories. My time in Welkom, South Africa. After a year in Welkom, I wanted out. The place had been taxing and draining. Yes, I met some very nice people :-).
Well, the other day we were discussing conflict resolution with Farai and I was reminded of some pretty nasty situations I found myself in when I was in Welkom, yes, I didnt address the issue back then, instead I choose to run. I figured I didnt have the strength and energy for confrontation and I was afraid that if I didnt win I would feel even worse so I ran home to my mum. :-) my mum is great!!
But then I was reminded of all the guys who had hit on me then, and they were many and varied. I remembered comments about them from my friends back then. Apparently one was like a 'pantsola' :-) lol, he was a nice guy, I kinda liked him but something about him screamed no and I said no! Then came a dagga smoking 'rasta' guy, he was cute cos he was shy, :-) lol!!! But no, he wasnt the one. And then there was the intelligent engineer who started drinking like a fish and made the mistake of answering my cellphone one day! And who also tried to spend a night with me. Back then, my theory was, all Batswana guys wanted someone to sleep with and so I said no. I am special and the only man I would ever be with is my husband. Though I was accused of being old fashioned I am glad I kept that up :-). I gained a lot more in my husband.
Memory lane was sweet, sweet because I look back and I am glad I made the right choices with regard to dating and no sex before I was married. Memory lane reminded me how blessed I was to have Farai by my side. Going back in time showed me how God has been and is in my life. Last week I prayed and said God, like you opened Elisha's servant's eyes to see the host of angels surrounding them and protecting them, open my eyes as well to see you and boy he did open my eyes. I am blessed :-) we serve an awesome God
Just this week I was reminded of old memories. My time in Welkom, South Africa. After a year in Welkom, I wanted out. The place had been taxing and draining. Yes, I met some very nice people :-).
Well, the other day we were discussing conflict resolution with Farai and I was reminded of some pretty nasty situations I found myself in when I was in Welkom, yes, I didnt address the issue back then, instead I choose to run. I figured I didnt have the strength and energy for confrontation and I was afraid that if I didnt win I would feel even worse so I ran home to my mum. :-) my mum is great!!
But then I was reminded of all the guys who had hit on me then, and they were many and varied. I remembered comments about them from my friends back then. Apparently one was like a 'pantsola' :-) lol, he was a nice guy, I kinda liked him but something about him screamed no and I said no! Then came a dagga smoking 'rasta' guy, he was cute cos he was shy, :-) lol!!! But no, he wasnt the one. And then there was the intelligent engineer who started drinking like a fish and made the mistake of answering my cellphone one day! And who also tried to spend a night with me. Back then, my theory was, all Batswana guys wanted someone to sleep with and so I said no. I am special and the only man I would ever be with is my husband. Though I was accused of being old fashioned I am glad I kept that up :-). I gained a lot more in my husband.
Memory lane was sweet, sweet because I look back and I am glad I made the right choices with regard to dating and no sex before I was married. Memory lane reminded me how blessed I was to have Farai by my side. Going back in time showed me how God has been and is in my life. Last week I prayed and said God, like you opened Elisha's servant's eyes to see the host of angels surrounding them and protecting them, open my eyes as well to see you and boy he did open my eyes. I am blessed :-) we serve an awesome God
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Gabs-Lusaka-Cpt-Gabs
I am back.......
Been gone 2 weeks now. :-) Must admit I had lots of fun! Ok, Lusaka wasnt all that and a part of me knew it wouldnt be wow. Training was ok, the lady supposed to be training wasnt exactly knowledgeable on the subject. It was a waste of my time! Even though the company was paying for me to be there, I could have used the time wisely. I felt bad, like I was robbing the company of time and money!! And to make it worse, the lady treated us like we were some poor stupid africans!! I dont like being treated like I dont have a brain.
:-) Cape Town!!! Well, that was wow!!! I had a beautiful time with my husband. It was a foretaste of what our life would be after the 5th of December and I absolutely love it!! Farai is a true gem! I love this partnership and I have God to thank for creating us for each other.
Back home now and not looking forward to going to work tomorrow. :-( got a pain on my back even, :-( stress!! Its not a difficult job, but I work with people who are constantly trying to prove that they are capable and good by putting me down and belittling what i do even though I know they dont have half the brains I do. :-) I am fearfully and wonderfully made!! Daughter of the most high, why am I afraid of people who have no Jesus? They need to see him in me, I need to walk with my head held high, work hard, love life and everyone around me.
:-) With that...... I am ready for the week!!! Plus, tomorrow is a day closer to my wedding day and living with Farai :-) :-)
Been gone 2 weeks now. :-) Must admit I had lots of fun! Ok, Lusaka wasnt all that and a part of me knew it wouldnt be wow. Training was ok, the lady supposed to be training wasnt exactly knowledgeable on the subject. It was a waste of my time! Even though the company was paying for me to be there, I could have used the time wisely. I felt bad, like I was robbing the company of time and money!! And to make it worse, the lady treated us like we were some poor stupid africans!! I dont like being treated like I dont have a brain.
:-) Cape Town!!! Well, that was wow!!! I had a beautiful time with my husband. It was a foretaste of what our life would be after the 5th of December and I absolutely love it!! Farai is a true gem! I love this partnership and I have God to thank for creating us for each other.
Back home now and not looking forward to going to work tomorrow. :-( got a pain on my back even, :-( stress!! Its not a difficult job, but I work with people who are constantly trying to prove that they are capable and good by putting me down and belittling what i do even though I know they dont have half the brains I do. :-) I am fearfully and wonderfully made!! Daughter of the most high, why am I afraid of people who have no Jesus? They need to see him in me, I need to walk with my head held high, work hard, love life and everyone around me.
:-) With that...... I am ready for the week!!! Plus, tomorrow is a day closer to my wedding day and living with Farai :-) :-)
Friday, July 9, 2010
The God in me
I have a number of things on my mind tonight. :-) nothing hectic or cryptic or painful!
One of my devotions this morning was on Moses and the burning bush. A truly wonderful and inspired story. Bottom line, it's not about me, its not me.... :-) Its the God in me! Reminds me of the song Mary Mary sings, the God in me :-)! I am not doing anything, its not about me and I need to stop making everything about me! Thank you Lord for the gentle and sweet reminder!
:-( cant remember the second thing!! But I think there is a third.
Third..... The Real Time Faith lesson for this week is just oh so what I needed right now! Its about HANDLING EMOTIONS!! That is a power packed lesson. The verses are:
Philippians 4:13 (NKJV)
• “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
John 16:33 (NIV)
• “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
2 Timothy 1:7 (KJV)
• “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”
How powerful is that!? My God loves me so much, I have nothing to be afraid of, I have no need for anything for He provides even before I ask.
:-) I am just thinking that even God providing me with a husband was a seemingly long process to me, but now when I look at my husband, I cant help but smile and thank God for the man He has given me! A man who loves and fears God. A man who loves and adores me :-) who inspires me, who makes me so happy! :-) Thank you Lord Jesus for pouring your love for me in Farai. Thank you Lord
:-) I have remembered the third thing, On the CQ website is a blog on Letting go and Letting God. And the author talks about how God led her to leaving facebook! Something I also feel inspired to leave. And guess what? She nailed the real reason why facebook!!
This is what she says;
'Now, after finally letting go and letting God have His way on this issue in my life, I don’t feel burdened by my tendency to compare myself to others, which for me, social networking only made worse. I no longer feel guilty for not listening to my conscience. Now my prayer is: “O Lord, may we live our lives to Your glory and honor. May we make staying in touch with you our first priority with every new morning You give us the gift of life. May we not argue with the urgings of Your Holy Spirit. May we be still and know that You are God and that You are in control. May we trust as it says in Jeremiah 29:11, that Your will for our lives is far better than our own. In Jesus’ name we pray, Amen.” '
I think facebook depresses me because it seems like we are all competing. Who has the nicest whatever and will put it up for the rest of us to see and envy and if I dont have it it seems like something is missing in my life! Too much comparison. My life is full, busting at the seems even! God has been extremely good to me, nothing is lacking in my mind. December will be my last day on fb, if not earlier. :-) I am loving the blod :-)
One of my devotions this morning was on Moses and the burning bush. A truly wonderful and inspired story. Bottom line, it's not about me, its not me.... :-) Its the God in me! Reminds me of the song Mary Mary sings, the God in me :-)! I am not doing anything, its not about me and I need to stop making everything about me! Thank you Lord for the gentle and sweet reminder!
:-( cant remember the second thing!! But I think there is a third.
Third..... The Real Time Faith lesson for this week is just oh so what I needed right now! Its about HANDLING EMOTIONS!! That is a power packed lesson. The verses are:
Philippians 4:13 (NKJV)
• “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
John 16:33 (NIV)
• “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
2 Timothy 1:7 (KJV)
• “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”
How powerful is that!? My God loves me so much, I have nothing to be afraid of, I have no need for anything for He provides even before I ask.
:-) I am just thinking that even God providing me with a husband was a seemingly long process to me, but now when I look at my husband, I cant help but smile and thank God for the man He has given me! A man who loves and fears God. A man who loves and adores me :-) who inspires me, who makes me so happy! :-) Thank you Lord Jesus for pouring your love for me in Farai. Thank you Lord
:-) I have remembered the third thing, On the CQ website is a blog on Letting go and Letting God. And the author talks about how God led her to leaving facebook! Something I also feel inspired to leave. And guess what? She nailed the real reason why facebook!!
This is what she says;
'Now, after finally letting go and letting God have His way on this issue in my life, I don’t feel burdened by my tendency to compare myself to others, which for me, social networking only made worse. I no longer feel guilty for not listening to my conscience. Now my prayer is: “O Lord, may we live our lives to Your glory and honor. May we make staying in touch with you our first priority with every new morning You give us the gift of life. May we not argue with the urgings of Your Holy Spirit. May we be still and know that You are God and that You are in control. May we trust as it says in Jeremiah 29:11, that Your will for our lives is far better than our own. In Jesus’ name we pray, Amen.” '
I think facebook depresses me because it seems like we are all competing. Who has the nicest whatever and will put it up for the rest of us to see and envy and if I dont have it it seems like something is missing in my life! Too much comparison. My life is full, busting at the seems even! God has been extremely good to me, nothing is lacking in my mind. December will be my last day on fb, if not earlier. :-) I am loving the blod :-)
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Warrior is a child.............
There is a song, I dont quite remember how it goes but the whole message is around what do you do after you have fallen, after your heart has been broken and you are so sad, where do you go when you dont know where to go, when you dont know what to do with yourself!
I guess the questions above are not why I am blogging today. The response says you just stand, in His presence, you just stand! You dont have to say anything, dont have to do anything, you just stand!
:-( it doesnt make sense, am feeling so low, weepy even, but I dont know why. :-( and the devil is capitalising on that, reminding me of all the things that have ever hurt me in life :-(. How do you bury the hurt? No, not bury, I have buried it and it keeps resurfacing. I want it gone! Never to return! Life at times is painful, you love so much, you do so much for those you love and they do so little for you or nothing :-(
Is this the unconditional love that God wants us to have? To love so much and get nothing back and expect nothing? I guess I am far from it cos I want to be loved back, in the same manner that I love. :-( that's selfish I know!
I wish I could say it doesn't matter. Lord Jesus, take my hurts away, the bad memories, replace them with happy thoughts, with a happy present as the past we cant undo!
Lord, sometimes the gifts and talents you give us also hurt us. I dont know how to explain this but you understand. For once Lord, I want to be one of those people who are receiving from family and friends. Not to always be the one people expect gifts from. I am not complaining about the gifts I have given out. But just once Lord, let people do something nice for me. :-( am I asking for too much? Without me asking or complaining to them, I want to be remembered and to receive gifts of love. Maybe I am asking too much Lord. Help me not to expect too much from my family and friends Lord Jesus, in the same manner as I have been committing everything to you and you have been helping me Lord, let us continue. Forgive my selfish thoughts
Thank you, for I feel a lot better.
I guess the questions above are not why I am blogging today. The response says you just stand, in His presence, you just stand! You dont have to say anything, dont have to do anything, you just stand!
:-( it doesnt make sense, am feeling so low, weepy even, but I dont know why. :-( and the devil is capitalising on that, reminding me of all the things that have ever hurt me in life :-(. How do you bury the hurt? No, not bury, I have buried it and it keeps resurfacing. I want it gone! Never to return! Life at times is painful, you love so much, you do so much for those you love and they do so little for you or nothing :-(
Is this the unconditional love that God wants us to have? To love so much and get nothing back and expect nothing? I guess I am far from it cos I want to be loved back, in the same manner that I love. :-( that's selfish I know!
I wish I could say it doesn't matter. Lord Jesus, take my hurts away, the bad memories, replace them with happy thoughts, with a happy present as the past we cant undo!
Lord, sometimes the gifts and talents you give us also hurt us. I dont know how to explain this but you understand. For once Lord, I want to be one of those people who are receiving from family and friends. Not to always be the one people expect gifts from. I am not complaining about the gifts I have given out. But just once Lord, let people do something nice for me. :-( am I asking for too much? Without me asking or complaining to them, I want to be remembered and to receive gifts of love. Maybe I am asking too much Lord. Help me not to expect too much from my family and friends Lord Jesus, in the same manner as I have been committing everything to you and you have been helping me Lord, let us continue. Forgive my selfish thoughts
Thank you, for I feel a lot better.
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